What Happens When You’re Bulimic, But Not Thin Enough for Anyone to Notice? I’m holding back — and she knows it. My entire body feels tense, not ideal for the setting. I try to relax, but the plush leather couch crumples under me when I shift, making the movements extraordinary. I’ve barely looked into my therapist’s blue eyes at all, and yet I think the hour has gone very well. Of course it has. On the surface, when the patient has been highly selective of the discussion topics, therapy always resembles a friendly get- together.“Well,” my therapist, Lori, says, the millisecond after I become certain our time is up and I might be in the clear. My eyelids tighten, my mouth puckers to the left, and my head tilts, as though I’m asking her to clarify.“When you said you’re attracted to me,” she continues.“Oh, yeah,” I say. Within the confines of my family, I’ve always been the biggest target of ridicule. We all throw verbal darts around as though we’re engaged in a massive, drunken tournament at a bar, but the most poisonous ones seem to hit me the most often, admittedly somewhat a consequence of my own sensitivity. I’ve been told it was historically all part of an effort to toughen me up, but instead I was filled with towering doubts about my own worth. And since 2. 01. 2, when I gave up a stable, tenured teaching career for the wildly inconsistent life of a freelance writer, I’ve had great difficulty trusting my own instincts and capabilities. I told Lori that I wish I was better at dealing with life’s daily struggles instead of constantly wondering if I’ll be able to wade through the thick. I could easily get a prescription for Topamax as I have migraines and my doc and I talked about it at our last visit. I would also LOVE the weight loss side effect. A reader writes: I feel really conflicted about asking this. It's really a question of workplace etiquette, I suppose. 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What’s the best exercise for weight loss? How can I overcome binge eating? Does intermittent fasting work for weight loss? I’m getting married this week . I’m desperate She quickly and convincingly pointed out that I work rather hard and am, ultimately, paying my bills on time, that I have friends, an appreciation for arts and culture, and so on. In short, I am, in fact, strong, responsible and “pretty good at life.”Then Lori heightened the discussion a bit. I was too insecure and too single to handle such a compliment from a beautiful woman.“Why are you reacting that way?” Lori asked. I shrugged my shoulders, only half looking up.“Is it because you’re attracted to me?”I laughed a little, uncomfortably. She jogs often, I’d come to find out, which explains her petite figure and ability to probably pull off just about any outfit of her choosing. I still can’t speak, so she takes over.“Do you think you’re the first client that’s been attracted to their therapist?” she asks rhetorically. Do you bend me over and take me from behind?”Nailed it.“If that’s what you’re thinking, it’s OK,” she goes on, earnestly, explaining that she’s discussed sexual scenarios with her clients before so as to “normalize” the behavior and not have them feel their own thoughts are unnatural. By showing the patient a level of acceptance, she hopes to facilitate a more comfortable atmosphere for “the work” — her painfully accurate pseudonym for psychotherapy. I take a second to let the red flow out of my face, and ponder what she said. I’m a little unsure about this whole technique, but the more I think about it, the more it makes sense. So I go home, incredibly turned on and completely unashamed.* * *One of the great breakthroughs I’ve had in the thirteen months since I began seeing Lori (who agreed to participate in this article, but requested that her full name not be published) is a new ability to accept the existence of dualities in life. For instance, I’ve always had a tremendous sense of pride that, if it doesn’t straddle the line of arrogance, certainly dives into that hemisphere from time to time. I’m great at seeing flaws in others and propping myself up above them by smugly observing my character strengths. I’ve never liked that about myself, but the harder concept to grasp is the fact that I can be so egotistical while also stricken with such vast quantities of insecurity. In treatment I came to realize that all people have contradictions to their personalities. There’s the insanely smart guy who can’t remotely begin to navigate a common social situation, the charitable girl who devotes all her time to helping strangers, but won’t confront issues in her own personal relationships. In my case, my extreme sensitivity can make me feel fabulous about the aspects of myself that I somehow know are good (my artistic tastes) and cause deep hatred of those traits I happen to loathe (the thirty pounds I could stand to lose). My next session with Lori is productive. We speak about relationships I’ve formed with friends and lovers, and how my family may have informed those interactions. One constant is that I put crudely high expectations on others, mirroring those thrown upon me as a kid. I’m angered when people don’t meet those expectations, and absolutely devastated when I don’t reach them. Lori points out that it must be “exhausting trying to be so perfect all the time.” I am much more comfortable than I was the week prior, and can feel myself being more candid. I’m relieved that the whole being- attracted- to- my- therapist thing doesn’t come up. Then, a week later, Lori mentions it, and I become tense again.“I thought I’d be able to move past it,” I say, adding, “We aired it out, and it’s fine.”As definitive as I’m trying to sound, Lori is just as defiant.“I’m glad you feel that way,” she begins, “but I think you owe yourself some kudos. This kind of therapy,” she shares, “isn’t something just anyone can take on.” Such honest discussion doesn’t simply happen, it takes tremendous guts, and Lori can see that I am dealing with it relatively well, so I should praise my own efforts.“Shit, we both should be proud of ourselves,” she says. My treatment wouldn’t be happening if I weren’t enabling it. Then she says, “And don’t think it’s not nice for me to hear that a guy like you thinks I’m beautiful.”Crippled by the eroticism of the moment, and combined with the prevailing notion that no woman this stunning could ever be romantically interested in me, I flounder through words that resemble, “Wait. Who knows?”I’m confused — Is she really attracted to me or is this some psychotherapeutic ruse? I’m frustrated — I told her I didn’t really want to talk about it. Shouldn’t she be more sensitive to my wants here? I’m angry — Is she getting an ego boost out of this? Most of all, I don’t know what the next step is — Am I about to experience the hottest thing that’s ever happened to a straight male since the vagina was invented? There were two ways to find out: 1) Discontinue the therapy, wait for her outside her office every day, follow her to a hypothetical happy hour and ask her out, or. Keep going to therapy.* * *A week later, I’m physically in the meeting room with Lori, but mentally I haven’t left the recesses of my mind.“Where are you today?” she asks, probably noticing my eyes roving around the room.“I don’t know.”“Are you still grappling with the sexual tension between us?”Here we go again.“Yes,” I say, with a bit of an edge in my voice, “and I don’t know what to do about it.”Lori, ever intently, peers into my eyes, wrinkles her mouth and slightly shakes her head.“Do you want to have sex with me?” she asks. We both know the answer to that question. All I can do is stare back.“Let’s have sex,” she announces. How do I know for sure that you won’t take me if I offer myself to you?”“I wouldn’t do that.”“That’s what I thought,” she says, and tension in the room decomposes. I’m awfully proud of myself, and it’s OK to be in this instance. I’m gaining trust in myself, and confidence to boot. But, as the dualities of life dictate, I’m successfully doing “the work” with a daring therapist, while at the same time not entirely convinced she isn’t in need of an ethical scrubbing.* * *I don’t have another session with Lori for nearly three months, because she took a personal leave from her place of employment. When our sessions finally resumed, I could not wait to tell her about my budding relationship with Shauna. Ten minutes into my first date with Shauna — right about the time she got up from her bar stool and said she was “going to the can” — I knew she would, at the very least, be someone I was going to invest significant time in. She was as easy to talk to as any girl I’d ever been with, and I found myself at ease. Plans happened magically without anxiety- inducing, twenty- four- hour waits between texts. Her quick wit kept me entertained, and I could tell by the way she so seriously spoke about dancing, her chosen profession, that she is passionate about the art form and mighty talented too. Shauna is beautiful, with flawless hazel eyes and straight dark hair, spunky bangs and a bob that matches her always- upbeat character. She is a snazzy dresser and enjoys a glass of whiskey with a side of fried pickles and good conversation as much as I do. Things escalated quickly, but very comfortably, and since we’d both been in our fair share of relationships, we knew the true power of honesty and openness. So upon the precipice of my return to therapy I told Shauna about Lori, and admitted to having mixed feelings about what I was getting back into. I told her I was at least moderately uncertain if my mental health was Lori’s number- one concern since she always seemed to find the time to mention my attraction to her. The first two sessions of my therapeutic reboot had gone great. Lori appeared genuinely thrilled that I was dating Shauna and could see how happy I was. I wasn’t overwhelmed with sexual tension in the new meeting room, though it wasn’t actually spoken about, and in the back of my mind I knew it was just a matter of time before it would start to affect my ability to disclose my thoughts to Lori again. Then, while attempting to ingratiate myself with my new girlfriend’s cat by spooning food onto his tiny dish on the kitchen floor, I hear my phone ding from inside the living room.“You got a text, babe,” Shauna says. I stuff the cat food back into the Tupperware and toss it into the refrigerator. I make my way into the living room, angry at myself for not changing the settings on my new i. How Athletes Gain Weight After Retirement – Kyle Mauch. Disclaimer: I am not a doctor nor a health professional, and all studies, stats, and events following were from my own personal research, experiences and things I have seen. UPDATE: Because of the response from this post, we’ve started a program so that all of us former athletes can get our health back together! Check it out at Athlete. Reboot. com. How many former college and professional athletes have you seen that are surprisingly now overweight and unhealthy looking? When an athlete is at the top of their game and in midseason form, eating right and lifting weights. The ease of transition from one movement to another. The extreme physical hardship the body is capable of going through and power and finess it shows at the same time. The athletes are despised by those that wish to have that body. But, this perception of the athlete often quickly changes when the athlete steps away from the game and no longer trains for the sport. People begin to say “what happened to him?” in utter disbelief. They see before them somebody who once had 8% body fat but now has 3. Somebody who looks out of shape, un- athletic, and well. Athletes often face a problem of keeping their weight under control after retirement from their sport they played their whole life. Why is this? There are a couple major reasons athletes gain weight and lose their health after retirement aside from the obvious aging factor. The first reason for this is that they don’t usually change their eating habits even though their training habits have changed. When at the top of their game and training multiple times a day, athletes become accustomed to being able to eat whatever they want since the calories will be burned off anyways. This nutrition folly gets us all. It’s extremely hard to change eating habits, especially for athletes who aren’t in training. Nutrition Folly. The first year for an athlete after they step away from their sport is usually the hardest on their health. They typically feel that there is a major burden taken off of their shoulders of having to stay fit and healthy. They begin to binge a bit and eat whatever they want and however much they want. Gaining weight is usually expected, but normally the athlete doesn’t expect the weight to be a very noticeable amount. And, well, normally the athlete just doesn’t care until the weight becomes a problem. They’ve typically never had a weight problem so the thought of it actually happening to them never crosses their mind. In reality, this takes about a year for the athlete to notice because as long as their muscle mass is still there, they don’t feel soft. After a year though of no physical activity, their muscles diminish, and the fat begins to take center stage. When at peak physical condition, athletes bodies are using up so many calories every day that they can’t put on weight. Unless they are lucky enough to have coaches that are aware of healthy eating strategies. I’m not lifting a single weight for the next year.” This gets us all. From college to Hall of Fame athletes after they’re done. The thought of not having to wake up at 5: 3. They take full advantage of this and I personally have heard more athletes then I can count tell me this after they played their last game. I myself am a victim of this “gym strike.”For athletes, getting back in the gym is substantially more difficult than it is for the average Joe. The reason being, they have never ran or lifted weights in as bad of shape as they’re now in before. They’re not used to the terrible feel of being out of shape in the gym. This is due to the poor post retirement diet and the year long gym strike. This makes that first day in the gym that much more difficult and showing back up the next day even more difficult. They don’t have a deadline anymore to be at a certain weight and usually tell themselves that they have no reason to be strong anymore. Also, believe it or not, part of their gym problem has to do with their marital status. Single retired athletes usually start hitting the gym again once they notice their health and looks affect their attractiveness to the opposite sex. Single retired athletes are more likely to get back to a top physical condition after that first year because of the embarrassment. Married retired athletes however are less likely to ever find that physical fitness again. Because they typically aren’t going to clubs and being judged, they don’t typically need their bodies to look good to find a mate, and all in all they believe they don’t have any reason aside from health to be in great shape. They already have their love of their life so they know they will not be dying alone. The driving force for most married retired athletes to get in the gym is at the hand of their wives. Is there a solution? The solution is awareness and planning. The weight gain in retiring athletes happens to all levels 0f athletes from elite college athletes to the Hall of Fame professionals. The majority of these athletes don’t ever picture themselves possibly becoming overweight. Their confidence in their bodies gets the best of them since nobody ever mentions training for post sport. For athletes, the only exciting thing about retirement is the break and freedom. This causes extreme laziness and poor eating habits. The solution is knowing ahead of time to stay active, stay fit, and stay moving even if it is at a slower pace than before. Basically, keep being an athlete without taking a major “break” from physical activity. With a proper awareness program in professional players associations and NCAA and NAIA athletics, I believe this problem for athletes could diminish substantially. Don’t you think that a little post playing advice from the league is the least they owe their athletes for all of the money the athletes made for them? However, by sharing with them other athletes mindsets after their careers are over and then showing them what those mindsets did to the other athletes, I believe many athletes will begin to keep a healthy fitness level post sport. Education is a powerful thing.*There are many other reasons why many athletes suffer from post playing days obesity that I did not list. I simply wanted to focus on the two most common issues. Other major reasons for post career obesity are depression and aging. How I fell into this problem. For baseball players, you can’t perform fluidly and quickly being bulky so a lot of muscles you never workout much. I was excited to have so much time to really attack those muscles and see where I could get my body. But, the first thing I did was say I’m taking 6 months off of weights and 6 months off of running to treat myself after years of training. That 6 months turned into 1. I did for training for my new sport. After breaking my routine of lifting 5 days a week, I found it very difficult to get back on that routine even with new teammates to train with. Every now and again I’d go on a health spree of a week or two and hit the gym a few times, but when in the gym, I didn’t have the drive that I used to have to push myself. I knew how to lift to be a well built baseball player, but didn’t know how to properly lift to be a healthy well balanced person. This is a problem during my research that I’ve found 9 out of the 1. It’s 1. 00% a mental problem since our training programs have typically been the same or given to us by somebody else our whole lives. The problem of walking in the gym and feeling like you’re wasting your time since you’re not on a program you think will benefit you, really gets to athletes mentally. The reason for doing this study is because I’ve noticed so many former athletes fat and out of shape. After finishing this mini study, I now feel obligated to do something to help retiring athletes stay healthy and add years to their lives. I flat out don’t have the time in my days right now to be able to dedicate fully to doing a book on this, but would love to partner with somebody and help make it happen. Please contact me if you’re interested and lets make something great! If you’re a former college or professional athlete and would like to share your story for the studies, please email me at kyle@athletesbrand. I’d love to hear all post playing health stories that are both positive and negative stories to help the research. Any and all stories can help at least one retiring athlete in some way so please share them in the comments section below, or email them my way. Thanks for reading, stay positive, and lets get back in shape!*Updated on Feb. After a number of requests and and an incredible response to this post. As athletes, we’re used to having coaches, predetermined game plans, and in many cases teams to train with. So over the next few months I’ll be putting this all together so that we can hold each other accountable, push results, and get competitive about it no matter where we are in the world. It’s time to reboot back to our golden days! If you want to help or join the team, sign up below so we can bring everyone together.
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